robin flew into my life

This morning, I was on a mission to work on my novel, which meant that I first had to tidy up, put washing on, make the beds, make breakfast and change the water in the air purifier (hour and a half down the drain), when a tiny red robin flew onto the windowsill. There she was, centimetres away from me, looking right at me. I stilled and smiled and she proceeded to hop around, twisting her head to look at me with this eye and then the other, turning her head and looking at me playfully over her shoulder and then hopping and turning, almost like she was saying hello, and thanks for the near-constant supply of delicious fat balls, mealworms, suet pellets and wild bird seed in the garden. I told her I'll give her thanks to my husband, who actually fills the bird feeders and she carried on, hopping, pecking and looking at me, unafraid. So we just stood there in a very happy and tranquil, significant moment, for a while.

I often struggle with feeling safe and secure. I'm one of those people who feels compelled to control everything in order to avoid disaster, and anything I have no complete control over - future, other people, weather - makes me feel uncomfortable in waves of anxiety which are at times worse than others. So I went online and this is what they say:

If Robin has flown into your life:

Robin signifies stimulation of new growth and renewal in many areas of life. She teaches that any changes can be made with joy, laughter and a song in your heart. This bird shows you how to ride the winds of passion within your heart and become independent and self reliant through this change. The energy of this bird will teach you how to move forward with grace, tenacity, perseverance and assertion. Are you letting go of personal dramas? Ones that no longer serve your higher purpose? Are you exercising compassion and patience in mental, spiritual and emotional areas? This creature will teach you how to incorporate new beginnings with faith and trust in the process. It is time to believe in yourself and use the inspiration that is given. Listen carefully. It is time to sing your own song for a new period in your life.

You are reminded to shake the sleepiness and lethargy out of your head, get alert, get moving, and start enjoying life!

I'm a believer in life of infinite resources and part of that is the ability to attract what we need into our lives. The gentle serendipity that stirs us along our path, setting intention at something and it manifesting for us, meeting teachers when we are ready to learn from them, especially if all these are just instances of paying attention at the right time, seem to be a blessing of being able to navigate this incredibly complex world in a way that benefits us and those around us. At any moment there are countless choices to be made, and if we run on an automatic we have 50% chance of making the one that will benefit us most. Or we can overcomplicate, try to analyse and strategise a situation often composed of dozens of independent variables and possibly end up with less that 50% chance. But there's another way. If we look at our society and our intellectual and emotional capacity, our relentless thirst for knowledge and finding meaning, patterns and connection, as well as helping others, it is easy to imagine abstract concepts such as collective consciousness and archetypes coming to life. Mahat for example, is a concept from indian philosophy that describes a form of energy that acts as universal intelligence. Like a stage in matter/energy transformation that is also a source of thoughts, knowledge and ideas we can tap into. Some say this is the primordial pool of mental energy, the universal knowledge, where thoughts that resonate with our own vibrations get plucked out of. Or even things like tao, yin and yang, all describe the background vibration that gives rise to all energy and matter in the universe, including our bodies, minds and thoughts. Not that I understand much of quantum mechanics, but seeing how birds use their eyes in order to migrate using entanglement principle, it is not inconceivable that entanglement can and does occur between different forms of life, vibrations synchronising or responding, perhaps even simply facilitating certain thoughts appearing in our heads, thoughts we needed to hear. Thoughts the Universe wanted us to have.

My day started with an email from a feminist party asking me to petition my local MP to turn up to Parliament on Friday and ratify Istanbul Convention, a piece of legislation that would force governments to seriously engage in prevention and punishment of violence against women. 95% of all violent acts world-wide are committed by men, and targets are usually women. And that I need to beg a man to turn up to his highly paid job, where his sex vastly outnumbers mine, is the real gist of the world we live in. As grim as this topic may be, I felt so grateful that I could lend my name to such an important initiative.

Now I'm really going to work on my novel. xo

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